Some of you reading this may know me quite well, while others of you may have heard of me from passing conversations, but I would like to take time today, at the leading of God the Father, to officially issue a public statement of repentance to all those that I have offended or hurt with my public ministry over the last 7 years.
I have recently come to the realization and for me personally, a revelation, of how often I have ministered the word of the Lord, without the Father’s heart. I have been too hard with my words on the bride of Christ and failed to properly and maturely communicate what I have received from the Father in a way that truly pleases Him. I was recently invited to minister prophetically at a retreat where pastors and their wives had gathered for a time of impartation and refreshing. We had a tremendous time in God’s presence and I taught and prophesied over each couple. As I was leaving that day, the man who invited me to the event stopped me as I was getting in my car and said, “One thing I am learning is that Jesus said, ‘I am the way, the truth, and the life’. He didn’t say, ‘I am the way, the truth, and I’M RIGHT.” I am not sure what prompted that precious brother to say that to me, but all I can say is that an arrow was shot straight out of heaven that pierced my heart in that moment and has wounded me in a way that I do not have adequate words to describe. On my drive home as I wept in my car, God the Father spoke to me and said, “When are you finally going to lay down your need to be right prophetically and start releasing life like the father I have called you to be in the body of Christ?” That one question from the Father has caused me to do some sobering heart and motive searching over the last month.
I planted “Heart of the Father Ministry” in Lakeland, FL 7 years ago out of an encounter that I had with the Father’s heart. He poured out His love and goodness upon me and it impacted me in a radical way. As myself and our eldership team began to labor to establish the church plant, I confess that somewhere along the way I drifted from the Father’s heart and began preaching out of my own frustration and not the place of revelation. Over the years and with great sorrow, I have come to the sobering conclusion that I drove out people from our midst in Lakeland who were the very people God was sending in an attempt to tenderize and soften my young prophetic heart. I was carrying the capacity as a young prophet to clearly see where God wanted to take our community, but I was unable to communicate the vision with a Father’s heart. I was impatient and desiring to get us to our destiny way too fast and did not have enough compassion for those who were struggling. I believe I released the word of the Lord out of the place of prayer on many occasions, but it brought hurt rather than healing, condemnation, rather than freedom. For my insensitivity to the brokenness of humanity, for my inability to bend down and bear the burdens of the hurting, for my zeal without wisdom, and my hastiness in driving the saints rather than releasing them to the Father, I publicly repent to “Heart of the Father Ministry” and anyone who has been a member and left over the last 7 years because of my mistakes, which I will have to stand before God and be held accountable for. I sincerely apologize for any hurt or misrepresentation of the Father’s heart that I have brought to anyone’s life because of my words or actions. I am sorry that my need to be right and prove my point prophetically failed to release life in our community. I am now committed more than ever to practically and with tenderness release life as a father to all those who are in need. I will bring the word of the Lord with the Father’s heart in the days ahead. Please forgive me.
Next, I would like to publicly repent to anyone that has come into contact with my public ministry via facebook, other social media outlets, or network and conference gatherings where I have communicated the word of the Lord without the Father’s Heart. I repent for coming across as critical, accusatory, and condescending toward churches, leaders in the body of Christ, and anyone else that I might have offended. My need to be”right” and get my points across have at times blinded me to the need to just release “life” and move on. I realize that there are many people in the body of Christ who follow the prophetic ministry that God has given me because of the truth spoken and perspective that the Father has given me, but this is and never will be an excuse for the times that I have operated in the flesh or foolishness. I am responsible for the impression that I leave upon God’s people and I have done a poor job at this more times than I would like to admit, but nevertheless, I have been in the wrong many, many times. I repent for any times that I have used social media as a means to passive aggressively or indirectly attack leaders and movements. While I know God has spoken to me concerning many topics and issues, I regret that I have not always been gracious, merciful, or kind to those who have differing opinions than I do. For this immaturity, pride, and arrogance, I repent to anyone that I have offended over the last 7 years as I have traveled the USA and various foreign nations. Please forgive me.
Moving forward, I ask that you would please pray for me as I continue to learn how to better communicate God’s word with His Father’s heart. I believe the Father called me to plant a church and learn how to practically shepherd His people so that He could bridal me and teach me His heart and ways. As I continue to submit to His dealings both in the local church in Lakeland, FL and my travels abroad, I’m believing that relationships that I’ve lost would be mended and restored and God would give me more opportunities to repent to those who I have hurt and offended. Thank you for your patience and mercy toward the mistakes in public ministry that I have made.
Leaning upon His grace,